I apologize. My mood was real bad ytd-
First things' first- results. I've shed buckets of tears, irritable mood.
Secondly- I just didn't expect a "walk-away". esp since. Insecurity is lingering.
Blame me if you wish. At least I tried to make up for my horrid bitched attitude=/
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=/ my results.totallynotwhatiwantnow. i... am confused. =/
really i am. really afraid. reallyreally. i regret. nouse. simply. nouse.
what can i do? appeal. i just pray hard i get it. i dont want this.
considering a transfer if i dont get it. =/ is that too much?
but it hurts when ppl come asking me "hey, which stream did you get into?"
or telling me "omg, i'm so happy i got into the stream i want!"
*smiles, "yeah, congrats!"
selfish to tell ppl not to talk to me abt streaming. selfish to start crying when ppl seem so happy with theirs.
but maybe i cannot help it. the email didnt do anyhelp. i was calm
forgot abt the thing- results.
but the notification... it triggered it.
great. and i cant choreograph- i cant dance freely. i cant i cant i cant!!!!
DANCED- 7:36 PM